I’ve at all times had a bizarre relationship with garments. I’ve at all times beloved placing outfits collectively and preparing the day, nevertheless, I haven’t at all times had the motivation to do all of that-especially after graduating school. I’d spend lots of time purchasing in shops and on-line and finally I had SO a lot garments. I nonetheless don’t know the way I used to be in a position to match all of it in my tiny closets in my school flats. When Zay and I moved in collectively, which was after commencement, I knew I needed to eliminate garments. I nonetheless had garments from HS that I hadn’t worn since however simply couldn’t deliver myself to eliminate. I ended up donating 6 trash baggage filled with clothes that 12 months. That was additionally the 12 months I had began to achieve weight.
Shopping for pants was the worst, I went from a dimension three to a 7, 8, 9, and finally 11. I hated shopping for pants. Then I went as much as a dimension M, generally L in tops. I saved telling myself to not store a lot so I might drop pounds and match into my outdated garments. My outdated garments that was far too small however nonetheless wouldn’t eliminate.
A 12 months after staying in that condo, I cleaned out my closet once more, and once more had a number of baggage of clothes to donate. By this time I used to be shedding all motivation to prepare as a result of I didn’t wish to face the truth of the modifications I used to be going by way of. So, I’d solely put on denims, sweats, and t shirts, and the occasional sweater. I had reached a degree the place I simply didn’t wish to put on good garments as a result of I didn’t wish to see how my physique had modified, and the way the best way garments regarded and match on me was additionally totally different.
I lastly reached the purpose that sufficient was sufficient. Then, the pandemic hit. I discovered this to be the right time to get comfy in my physique and begin having enjoyable with garments once more. The stress of how others would understand me was lastly lifted off my shoulders. The way in which I used to be perceiving myself, was altering for the higher. I’m comfortable to be in a wholesome relationship with my garments. A place the place I really feel assured irrespective of how daring or bland my look is. And in addition a spot the place I not really feel hooked up to any of the objects in my closet.
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